Wednesday, September 07, 2005

ladies and gentlemen.... my latest obsession...

my roommate is a Buffy the Vampire Slayer fan. and she's totally reeled me in. mostly because of this guy. mostly because he's absolutely beautiful.
sadly, he's a vampire on the show. but my goodness!!! i've come to the realization that i'm a sucker for this european look. the sunken cheeks, high cheekbones. so very attractive. i really do need to move to europe. amsterdam anyone?? :-)

i haven't been sleeping well lately. lots of questions running through my head. what it comes down to is that my life doesn't look like i want it to. nor does it look like the picture God has painted, the vision He's cast. i remember telling aaron one night that i don't know what else to do but take the next step on my current path. the problem is that every step feels like it moves me farther away from the things i truly want: a home. a family. a thriving, effective youth ministry.
then i'm reminded of the israelites. they were promised a land of abundance and peace, only to be led into the desert and pursued by a vast army moments later. i'm reminded of the lessons they had to learn. the faith that had to be built.
i'm also reminded that the Promise Land had to be taken. it had to be fought for. God's word to the israelites was "I've given this land to you, go and defeat these armies and take it." they didn't just walk in and start building sub-divisions. armies had to be defeated. nations destroyed.
so the promise land, God's vision for our lives, has to be taken. it has to be fought for and obtained. because in that fighting, strength is gained. along with wisdom. patience. faith. and gratitude once the battle has been won.


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