here's an interesting twist

i got an email from jason yesterday. spring hill is looking for a program director. spring hill. and he thinks i'd be great at it. and he told them that. so he's supposed to find out what i need to do to apply and i guess i'll be applying for the job. i feel like i should be crazy excited at the possibility, but i'm mostly uncertain. first of all, this puts into sharp focus my incredible insecurity about my creativity and leadership abilities. everyone around is always so much more certain about my abilities than i am.

sometimes i wonder if i have a tendancy to sabatoge (sp?) my own success. there's really no reason why i shouldn't go after this with everything i have. i mean first of all, it's spring hill.. so many kids come through that place. second, it be the perfect blend of adventure-based youth- ministry and programming. third, it'd be a steady income that would get me through the lean years of project311.

of course, all the speculation is putting the cart before the horse. i haven't even talked to anyone from spring hill. i don't know what they're looking for, if i'd have the qualifications they want, etc, etc. so i guess we'll just see what happens.